My Troubled Life

I wish I new the answers

To the questions in my mind

I wish I new which way to turn

True happiness to find.

I try to face life with a smile

Help others along the way

Dear Lord, how can it be so hard

To face each coming day?

How long will it take me to still

This longing in my heart,

Or will it always be with me?

Tell me how to do my part.

I can't make it on my own

Must love be so unkind?

What can I do to make my heart

Listen to my mind?

A hopeless love is what I have

This fact I can't deny

And knowing that he loves me, too

Just makes me want to cry.

How can we ever happy be

When we must live apart?

I must find some way to face it

But I don't know where to start.

Why did we meet and fall in love

If it can never be?

I didn't want to love him

I can't help it -- don't you see?

I must get used to disappointments

I must learn to cope

I must accept things as they are

And not fill my heart with hope.

I know he wants my love at times

But he still wants to be free

So it isn't very often ---

That he spends his time with me.

He thinks I want to tie him down

But I just want his love

And yes I need to have him near

Please help me, Lord above.

Please Lord, give me patience

And let me happy be

Why can't my heart be satisfied

Just knowing he loves me?

But my body craves his tender touch

My lips long for his kiss

My arms are empty when he's gone

Why must it be like this?

Pearl E. Cain