Drowning In Despair

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How do I get myself to do

The things that must be done?

How can I face the days ahead

When I would rather run?

Away from life and reality

Away from hurt and pain

Away from accepting what is to be

Too afraid to try again.

Afraid of being rejected and hurt

Afraid of failing once more

Afraid to be the person I am

Knowing not what I'm searching for.

Missing the love I thought was mine

Each time I gave my heart

Always wondering what went wrong

Did I fail to do my part?

Please, won't someone help me

For I have lost my way

I'm looking for a chance to live

But I have gone astray.

 strength and courage are all gone

I've lost the will to fight

I'm simply drifting with the tide

Caring not for wrong or right

Feeling beaten down and trampled on

Too sick, too tired to care

My heart and soul are shattered ---

And I'm drowning in despair.

Pearl E. Cain